Evelyn Lozada made a name for herself on VH1’s hit show, Basketball Wives, but that chapter of her life if closed for good.

When producers reached out to the fiery Lozada in an effort to get her to return for BBWLA, along with her former cast mates Shaunie O’neal and Tami Roman, the reality star known for popping off and getting buck decided against it. “I did think about it, I’m not going to lie. I was just like maybe … and then I was like no, let me just pause,” Evelyn revealed.

And saying no may have been the best thing she ever did. “I’m glad that I did because then this other opportunity came which is good,” Ev stated. The opportunity she’s talking about is her own show. Livin’ Lozada follows Evelyn’s life as a mother of two, 22 year old Shaniece and 1 year old CJ, and fiancée to MLB star Carl Crawford. The once brash beauty is now in a better place and hopes to show fans how far she comes. “When I retire from reality TV I want to know that I did something positive cause Lord knows I did some crazy things on Basketball Wives.”